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thanks

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I first of all want to apologize for not having spent enough time responding to blog posts and writing posts myself – but I’m finally adjusting and making time. Darin’s “Friendly Reminder” e-mail played a part in speeding up that process. Thanks, Darin. Darin is a gentle fellow and may his beard continue to grow vigorously through all seasons.

The things we’ve discussed every week have been on my mind constantly, but it was quite difficult to clear my head from distractions and form my thoughts into words. When I can’t make time to be alone, I’ve discovered that plugging in my earphones with no music lets me distance myself from my friend who is only inches away from me and ready to share the next random fact of the day.

I recently remembered something these two people said when they prayed for me a few years ago. One person said that a large piece of hot and freshly-baked bread came to mind. The other person said that he saw me tearing down walls like paper and running after God.

I desire that so much. I want to see and taste that God is good. A few days ago I was having a conversation with my friend for several hours about John 1. It’s simply amazing when we realize that the word is God- we’re not just learning about God when we read the bible. I want to consume his word. I want to internalize it and make it a part of me.

It’s just so amazing how God has allowed me to meet such awesome brothers and sisters in Circles. I am encouraged every time I read your words and hear your thoughts. Thank you, and thank you for being in my life.

Written by David

February 17, 2011 at 10:00 pm

Posted in Circles

Week 2

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Something about listening to “Disintegration Loops” made me realize that I had been numb to a certain component that I had as a creature made by God.  As I’m typing this, I’m still not completely sure, but I think it has something to do with my worldview.

What I mean by my worldview is this: ever since I was little, I kept my own thoughts of how I imagined the world to have developed.  I think I did this more often as I began to study science, and to put it crudely, I adjusted for the “God factor” in everything.  It was my way of making sense of everything that I learned in school and what I read from the Bible.

When I listened to the puzzling piece of music that night, I began to appreciate art and music in that they could serve their purpose in glorifying God.  Of course, I knew this before, but I think I have a bad “spiritual memory.”  The music also reminded me that we were hybrids– part body and mind, and part spirit– and something about realizing that in such a deep, experiential manner provided a huge contrast from my worldview.

It’s quite ironic in that scientists perform experiments to learn and verify things, when all of that is really nothing like having an undeniable experience firsthand.  We can squeeze out theories and describe the universe using numbers and even applaud the complexity and beauty of God’s creation, but it just falls short when compared to simply taking a step back and being in awe of who God is, and who we are in relation to him.

Written by David

February 10, 2011 at 10:19 pm

Posted in Circles