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Consolidation

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I’ve realized that I’ve been stretching myself too thin lately.

I’ve been driving up to Pasadena and other surrounding areas to meet some of my old friends.  I want to do a lot of “stuff” before my full-time internship starts this summer.  I’m driving, dozens of miles at a time, refueling, and driving again.  But I’m realizing that I should just slow down.  My reasons for travelling and meeting others seem to be justified — they are good old friends that came from out of state and outside the country, and I want to see them before they leave again.  But I need to consolidate my time and resources and do only what I have to do, while trusting in God.  I want to do as much as I can, with what I have here.

I’m not sure if I’m explaining myself clearly.  This following anecdote comes to mind, and I think might be related.

It was a few years ago.  My brother and I flew to Korea to meet up with my mom, dad, and my young sister.  They had also flown in from another country overseas.  Something interesting was that some missionary families that I hadn’t seen in over 10 years happened to be visiting Korea at the exact same week.  What was even more amazing was to watch my parents interact with the missionaries — they had not kept in touch for over 10 years, and yet they warmed up to each other as though they had just met yesterday.  They didn’t have Facebook or other means of keeping in touch, and they didn’t even keep in touch through e-mail (not that they didn’t want to, it just happened they weren’t able to keep in touch through e-mail).  Yet they had always been praying for each other, every day.   They spoke on the same wavelength.  They were on the same page, unified through the Holy Spirit.  It was so awesome to see them love each other, talk to each other about what had been happening in their lives.  That interaction was an example of true friendship, just loving one another, without all the “stuff” that we feel we need to maintain a friendship.  All they needed was their relationship with the Lord, and being connected through that — God as the common denominator.  I get this feeling as though heaven will kind of like this, an amazing reunion where we can spend time loving God and loving His valuable creation.

There are so many people that I want to meet from my past, so many lunches and dinners I want to have with others, so many conversations I want to have with them.  But more important than all of that is spending time with the Lord, consolidating my time.  Jesus had his disciples and met lots of people, but he always valued his time with the Lord.  And that is what I want to do.

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June 18, 2011 at 12:25 pm

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Update

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1
I recently watched a movie called Thor.  It was amazing.  I didn’t know anything about the Marvel Comics character Thor before I watched it.  There’s a line from the movie where Thor says something along the lines of, “Your ancestors called it magic, but you call it science.  Where I come from, they are one and the same.”

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That made me think about the world that we live in at the moment.  I don’t know exactly how the previous civilizations lived (they were probably just as justified in believing in magic and the supernatural, as much as we believe in science), but today we live in an era where truth is defined by empirical science.  We try so hard using our approach in technology, the scientific method, and billions of observations of the universe that doesn’t bring us even one step closer to understanding the Truth.   Our flawed and incomplete equations and formulas fail to accurately describe the universe.  And there is so much cost involved — it always feels like an uphill effort.  The numerous discoveries that are published in the scientific journals, over time, become so small in comparison to the infinite universe.

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Contrast that to Thor, who comes from a world that just KNOWS it.  He understands the complexities of the universe so completely, so perfectly, and so effortlessly.  It is so vibrant, so organic, so self-renewing.  And he’s so sure of his purpose.

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I guess this related to me a lot, as I’m generally around people that rely on science, myself included.  The accumulation of knowledge is a temptation for me, if I have not placed God first.  One of the reasons why I did not pursue a PhD program was because of my fears that I might not be able to control myself when I am more deeply immersed in this environment.

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In an odd way, what I wrote down while at Ponderosa is a source of encouragement:  All of the efforts made by me amounts to nothing unless God is  at the center.  All of my understanding is so limited and lacking.  There is something so fundamentally different about God and His ways.  Consuming, consuming, entertaining, seeking water that results in thirst, again and again.  But God has given us Himself.  He tells us to be strong.  He tells us not to fear.  He tells us that He has chosen us.  His Spirit is with us.  And until Jesus returns, we will be His signet ring.

Written by David

June 10, 2011 at 2:37 pm

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